The feeling and what it’s been missing (a poem)

For this month’s writing challenge, I have chosen the rimas dissolutas, a form in which (according to A Poet's Glossary, by Edward Hirsch) ‘each line in an unrhymed stanza rhymes with its corresponding line in a subsequent stanza.’ This, I am finding out, is harder than it sounds… From twenty to twenty-four in the blink of tired eyes [...]