A work in progress, with the title nicked from a Prefab Sprout song.

1
I couldn’t bear to be special
I wanted only to be the one
you would let be the one

Nothing else mattered to me
If only you could have seen
what you would have seen

Tomorrow could be different
I could be there for you
I’d go anywhere for you

2
I couldn’t bear to be special
I want the recognition
without all the notoriety
I just want to be happy
and left alone

I couldn’t bear to be special
A simple taste will do
a chance to know how it feels
to be one of a chosen few
standing in the light

I couldn’t bear to be special
What if I let you in?
Maybe this might begin
to feel like a possibility
like something special

I couldn’t bear to be special
but there you are
and here I am
waiting for you
When will love come for me?

3
I couldn’t bear to be special
I do what I do
because it’s what I have to do
What else can I do?
I’m not so special, you know

I couldn’t bear to be special
that’s not why I came
I’m here to be who I am
at least, as much as I can
Who else but me?

I couldn’t bear to be special
but I don’t want to be invisible
Every day is a cloak
I have to break through
to convince myself it’s possible

I couldn’t bear to be special
Maybe that’s why I can’t find the words
to express what I truly feel
Is there any other way
to make this feeling real?

4
I couldn’t bear to be special
but this is the year
they’ve started to die off
and we’re the ones left behind
for now…

(26 February 2016)