Inspired by the blog of a long-time friend.
Maybe I am being haunted
Maybe the translation is what I’m missing
because I’m looking too closely at the words
instead of at what they’re saying
—
A hot sandwich and iced tea
would be the perfect start to the day
(but substitute a coffee Frappuccino for the iced tea—
I require a bit more sugar)
—
It rained again today
but I had no time to rest
I had too many things to do
—
Every day, I feel heavier
than the last
though I’ve been holding back
—
We all lapse into something, don’t we?
That must be why
my body feels sluggish again this morning
It is what it is—
and that’s the problem
—
Once again, there’s no one to talk to
I’m not sure where I should go
I get in my car and drive
—
How do I make chemicals of my own
if I keep giving in?
—
I’m so tired
—
It rained again today
I thought about going for a walk
but I knew I wouldn’t make it back in time
And I had too many things to do
—
I don’t meditate well
My thoughts scatter
I chase the pieces down
By the time I catch them all
and quiet them down
the session is ending
—
I have no trouble sleeping
except I wake up at 4 a.m.
then pretend to ignore the cat
when she taps me on the shoulder
to remind me it’s time for breakfast
—
My legs felt heavy this morning
I got up early
but I wanted to linger
under the blankets
just a little longer…
—
I’m doing my best
I’m doing my best
I’m doing my best
—
The desire comes quickly
the temptation is right there on the shelf
I’m doing my best
—
I want to believe in a soulmate
but I’m afraid it may have nothing to do with love
I don’t know what to do with that
—
I’m hungry
I’m thirsty
Is this supposed to be a placebo for something?
Why isn’t it working?
—
Tonight
I think I’ll have a cup of tea
and go to sleep to the sounds of rain
from a far off somewhere
I want to close my eyes
while the metronome ticks
—
The date on the calendar has changed
but I keep thinking it’s yesterday or tomorrow
—
I keep thinking I’ve done it again
maybe I’ll forget in a day or two
But the waves keep coming
(12 November 2019)
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