Inspired by the blog of a long-time friend.

Maybe I am being haunted

Maybe the translation is what I’m missing
because I’m looking too closely at the words
instead of at what they’re saying

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A hot sandwich and iced tea
would be the perfect start to the day
(but substitute a coffee Frappuccino for the iced tea—
I require a bit more sugar)

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It rained again today
but I had no time to rest

I had too many things to do

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Every day, I feel heavier
than the last
though I’ve been holding back

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We all lapse into something, don’t we?

That must be why
my body feels sluggish again this morning

It is what it is—
and that’s the problem

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Once again, there’s no one to talk to
I’m not sure where I should go

I get in my car and drive

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How do I make chemicals of my own
if I keep giving in?

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I’m so tired

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It rained again today

I thought about going for a walk
but I knew I wouldn’t make it back in time

And I had too many things to do

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I don’t meditate well

My thoughts scatter
I chase the pieces down

By the time I catch them all
and quiet them down
the session is ending

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I have no trouble sleeping
except I wake up at 4 a.m.
then pretend to ignore the cat
when she taps me on the shoulder
to remind me it’s time for breakfast

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My legs felt heavy this morning
I got up early
but I wanted to linger
under the blankets
just a little longer…

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I’m doing my best
I’m doing my best
I’m doing my best

—

The desire comes quickly
the temptation is right there on the shelf

I’m doing my best

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I want to believe in a soulmate
but I’m afraid it may have nothing to do with love

I don’t know what to do with that

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I’m hungry
I’m thirsty

Is this supposed to be a placebo for something?

Why isn’t it working?

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Tonight

I think I’ll have a cup of tea
and go to sleep to the sounds of rain
from a far off somewhere

I want to close my eyes
while the metronome ticks

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The date on the calendar has changed
but I keep thinking it’s yesterday or tomorrow

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I keep thinking I’ve done it again
maybe I’ll forget in a day or two

But the waves keep coming

(12 November 2019)

 

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