50/calmer (a poem)

The second week of the HoneLife eight-week Winter Poetry Challenge invites reflection on 2014, with a series of questions followed by directions on how to use the answers to those questions.

Could I change?
I continued to attract crazy people,
and it seemed to be getting worse:
long talkers tested the limits of the energy I’d gotten from the sun;
what started out funky fresh turned into a wicked wango.
I cried, thinking I’d left that all behind.
Crying helped, but didn’t solve anything.
Maybe have sex?

(19 January 2015)